The Road Back To You

Doesn’t the title of this post sound like a U2 song? As an avid fan, I think it does {lol}.

However, the true nature of this post is to follow-up on my last one entitled “Mommy Burnout”. What I’d like to talk about now is how do you get back to “yourself” when you don’t even know how you got off track?

I like to think of it as when you’re exploring in the woods. Especially as a kid, I would always follow a trail, then something would catch my eye- usually something beautiful or exotic. Before I knew it, here I was surrounded by a gorgeous forest, yet scared because I was lost. In those minutes it took me to get back to the trail, I was terrified, unsure, and quite frankly in tunnel vision. But once I found a glimpse of the path, I again was at ease.

Truly, this is the journey ahead. That time between hitting your rock bottom and getting back on track to live your fullest life is the hardest. Trust me, I know. Whether it be with substance abuse, physical ailments, mental ailments…..they all affect us the same…..as we are looking, or for some, discovering for the first time, what our path is.

One way I have discovered honesty and calm is through art. No, I have no talent in this subject whatsoever. I even go to those sip & paint events, which are guided classes, and it still looks like a 3-year-old did my painting. But, there’s something about mixing the colors and the brush strokes on canvas which help to harness positive energy. Or at least for me. Regardless of the end result, the painting itself creates a good environment, allowing me to think clearly.

Music is another one of the ways to touch the soul. As a mom, usually the only music I get to hear is whatever is playing on the Disney Channel. But, what I found works for me is to play my Pandora on my phone while taking a shower. It helps to block out the noise from the kids, and its private time where I can take a deep breath and feel the music. Lately I’ve been on an Amy Winehouse kick, but I also listen to everything from Blink 182 to Frank Sinatra to 80’s Pop. Taking a moment to listen to the words of the song, or even just the beat truly helps me when I’m in a funk.

Physical Activity should honestly be at the top of this “list” of ways to get back to yourself. This is an area I’ve been seriously lacking on lately. I can sit here and blame the winter, blame my IBS issues, blame my kids….but they’re simply excuses. I haven’t made my physical well-being a priority in the last 3 months. But that’s the beauty about exercise- there’s never a bad day to start. So today, I’ve sent my younger two to daycare for a couple of hours and carved out time to do some yoga & meditation. Now, some of you may be thinking that yoga isn’t a workout. Trust me it can be. For me, I’m starting with yoga because I want to stretch, do sit ups, push ups, and asanas before attempting to meditate. I also don’t feel ready to go brave the cold today and do a full on hike by myself in the snow-covered trails. That I’ll leave for another day- hopefully Sunday or Monday when my husband can join me. Being out in nature together is one of our favorite things, and I think it will allow us some much-needed bonding time. Anyway, as I was saying, just moving your body will help you mentally and physically. This I can attest to. You can take baby steps, or a huge leap, if you like. Please just make it for you.

Writing and Journaling is another big one for me. This blog in itself has been a saving grace. There are many times I begin to write a post, only to alter it or delete it completely because it may not be “share worthy”. Those thoughts and ideas reside mainly in my personal journal, but nevertheless, help get out the things that are on my mind.

Whatever creative or physical outlet is feels right to you is where you should go if you’re like me….trying to climb back up to where you feel you should be in life. Another quite interesting way to think of it is that this low or difficult point may just be part of your journey. There’s no “normal” in this world. Who’s to say that what you’re feeling or experiencing isn’t ok? Only you can be the judge of that.

Well, it appears that I’ve gone off on a philosophical tangent. Sorry about that. I hope that no matter what you’re dealing with, you find peace and serenity. Remember that after the storm comes a rainbow. Corny: yes. But I sure can’t wait to see my rainbow.

 

xo Robin

 

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